我的人生，难道在23岁就结束了吗？明年就24了，人生还是一无所成。当年迷信自己的实力，相信自己一定会有个成功的人生。今年还没，也许时机未到，等明年吧，这样年复一年，才发现自己又回到当初的原点，裹足不前。打拼好吗？自己的努力一定会得到回馈吗？付出好吗？一定会有收获吗？成功好吗？成功不会有失败的一天吗？只有为神而活，才不会白费宝贵的人生。然而，神的旨意为何呢？倘若神让我有选择，我选择什么呢？我宁愿自己没有选择，但实在不想再受到欺负，可世态炎凉，人心险恶，我能相信谁呢？谁会珍惜我的真心呢？不想和人斗，也无力与人斗，所以自己仍然躲在家里，远离伤害。我也许不能成功，但我能把风险降到最低。可这又有什么意义呢？
Will my life end in year 23? I'll be 24 next year, yet I achieved nothing. I believed in my capabilities, I believed that I can be a successful person and have a great life in earlier time. If not this year, perhaps next year I'll do something incredible. Year after year, life is still the same. Nothing has been done, I returned to the beginning, point of zero. Will my hardwork definitely be rewarded? Will my givings be returned? Will failure never come after success? I knew that to not waste life is to live for God. But what does God wants me to do? If God has given me freedom of choices, what should I choose? Sometimes I rather have no choice, yet I'm tired of competitions, cause the world is a jungle, the arena to fight for survival. Therefore I'm still sitting at home, away from harm. Perhaps I will never succeed, but I can minimise the risk, but is there any meaning to any of these?
2 comments:
Perhaps it's time to stop worrying about what you have or haven't done with your life yet and to just start living it. Time to get up in the morning and do something good for yourself and just enjoy the present time and situation. You are young and free, there are many many years ahead that you can do Gods work. For now you need to care for yourself. Sound selfish? A little self love goes a long way to loving and healping others I believe. Sometimes we just need to jump in and do it, too much thinking about things or waiting for the "right" thing can lead us nowhere.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Mtt 6:34
I would suggest start doing something, starting from small things. He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much (Luke 16:10). I agree that there is no use worrying. You are still young :)
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